Alone in Kyoto

Mono - Where Am I

2012-01-28T17:55:00.001+08:00

One down, three more to go. Well, actually, it's eight. Haa. Good day!

Metronomy - The Look

2012-01-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

REZKI, THE MONGSTER CAT

(un)familiar places

fin

have a good day, all!

Death Cab For Cutie - Title and Registration

2012-01-18T18:21:00.006+08:00

I JUST HAD TO SHARE THIS. LEGGO!

Good day, everyone! xo

Mogwai - May Nothing But Happiness Come Through Your Door

2012-01-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

Been listening to Mogwai, Mogwai and anything Mogwai. Song title just made it all even worth it. Sweet, sweet, bittersweet. Mosaic added limited tickets for toe, again but this time round I finally got them tickets! *throws confetti up in the air. Well, even if it means going alone. Who cares about all that? Am I not right to say? Boo.

Apart from that, eatmePoptart will be playing this weekend! Where else, none other than Zouk's Velvet Underground. Still contemplating on whether or not I shall go. Damn those cabfare hikes. Because of it, I have to think.. more than twice whether is it worth it to be staying out late at night. Gees. Anyway, my iPod had to screw up over the weekends. No more KDramas on train rides and Foals while walking home. Boo! Boo! Gonna send it for repair this week. Sim Lim, I thank you for your existence! Heh. I guess, it's back to book and the sound of nature. Err, k. Goodnight!

10cm - 4AM

2012-01-15T00:14:00.003+08:00

A year older, a year wiser - FZLJ

There's nothing much to brag about. I'll probably end my night with heart full of sorrows.
Leaving nothing behind and clearing up all these stained memories.
No, I'm not running away. Just cleaning up.

"Hope for the worst. Prepare for the worst. EXPECT for the worst"

Doesn't help me in any way. I'll let these pain eat me up from the inside.
And probably stay numb. Cause isn't that what I've been good at, right?

"I shouldn't let this bring me down. It's all temporary"

Today wasn't suppose to be one of those days where I'll cry myself to sleep
and struggle to stand on the same ground that brought me down.
Ouh agonizing, tremendous pain. Please, just fade. Fade, far, far away.

'Nuff said. Goodnight, fellas. xx

Kasabian - Re-wired

2012-01-13T20:35:00.007+08:00

The view from my office. It was only temporary. It was all good while it last. Gonna miss this place.

So many concerts happening on the first half of this year. I'm going broke shitless thinking about it. Kasabian, Laneway Festival, Foo Fighters, Toe, Architecture in Helsinki and many more. If you're going any, say Hi! when you bump into me. I won't bite. :3

I'm planning to drop Rochester Park a visit some time next week. Temporary bliss, here I come! With the book of course, what else. *shrugs And also do some volunteery work at SPCA soon. There's so many things that I want to do! Ouh, not forgetting 'things' that I want as well. Heh heh. I shall end this meaningless post with a couple of good looking Korean man photoshoots.

T.O.P aka Choi Seunghyun

Hyun Bin

Yummy! ( O v O ) Haa. Have a good weekend, everyone!

Yuna - Someone Out Of Town

2012-01-07T15:03:00.001+08:00

"You're standing at the edge of a cliff, aren't you Sun Woo Young? Let me give you a push.. so that you can never crawl up again."
- What's Up

Paramore - Playing God

2011-12-30T16:39:00.000+08:00

71: Into the Fire

A Millionaire's First Love

Panic! At The Disco - Let's Kill Tonight

2011-12-28T18:49:00.006+08:00

Went to KL during the long weekends!

old switch

gem stones at a ridiculously affordable cost

bottle cap

chinatown/petaling street

view from the hotel room

A&W

Old Town for tea

Bukit Bintang on Christmas eve

Pavillion and Fahrenheit

massive cheap deals, but only bought a few ] :

I regret not getting more than what I wanted. Shall save up for another getaway soon, I guess.

Not to mention, I bought a couple of books from Kinokuniya. And finally got myself, I Am Maru since it's been on my 'must-buy' list for the past few months! Since I managed to finished up on To Hell In High Heels, I decided to get a new book. Different author, similar plot. Nyeh, boring me.

Ouh, well! It's going to be a pretty long weekend again, I guess? Have fun! Don't drink and drive or whatsoever. Yikes! I sound so corny. Zz. Nevertheless, stay and be safe! Good day! Y(-__-Y)

"Lead with your heart. If you have a pure heart and good intentions, everyone will follow you"

- Dae Wi Nim, 71: Into The Fire

Foals - Two Steps, Twice

2011-12-23T00:26:00.005+08:00

"I was walking towards the sea when an incredibly sexy young man came towards me. He was wearing a wet suit and carrying a surf board. As he approached he began to peel off his wetsuit to reveal a perfect torso, not too big, well toned, muscular, and a beautiful brown colour. By the time he sauntered past me his wetsuit was hanging casually around his hips. He ran his hands through his black, thick, wet hair and glanced at me. He really was to die for. Bright blue eyes and fine features. For a moment I forgot that I am married with three children and flashed him a smile. He frowned and looked away. This was a defining moment for me, I realised that while I would be perfectly happy to make a pass at this man, he was probably thinking: There's some chick about my mother's age giving me the eye, how disgusting; astounded to think that someone of my age had a sex drive at all, let alone have the warped imagination to think I could sleep with him."

...

"It's such a relief to be away from it all. I feel the wind on my cheeks and relish the freshness of it compares to the stultifying and claustrophobic feeling of the conference. It is a beautifully sunny day. It is not hot, but the sun is warming. The air is fresh and invigorating. I take deep breaths, looking out over the sea where the late afternoon sun has the effect of a thousand flashbulbs going off on the surface of the water. There is nothing in that conference hall, no 'miracles' that can ever compare to nature."

quoted from: To Hell In High Heels

Well, what'd you know? It's Christmas in a couple of days! Not that I celebrate it, but here goes to the long weekend! Woohoo! I'll be spending my time in KL and I hope you guys have a good long rest. Don't drink and drive. And play safe, take the NightRider instead of cabbing home. Haa. Goodnight. xoxo

Yuna - Spanish Sahara (Cover)

2011-12-18T01:48:00.003+08:00

it's tearing me apart, watching you leading a total different life. something which i least expected. then it struck me, "Maybe, I don't belong here. I don't belong anywhere when it used to be only me and you." i remembered Cobb, from Inception, once said "She locked away a secret, deep inside herself, something she once knew to be true... but chose to forget." and i wonder why, i decide to just stay stuck in between this dreaded mess which would only bury me deeper into this shallow world that i build.

i'm not helping myself in any way. and neither i am proud about it. i try very hard to live life like Miranda Priestly. but it's not really working, isn't it? i am not married, i don't own a top magazine company, i don't have twins and i don't even have two personal secretaries. maybe, it's just that the sense of aura that she gives off that i'm yearning for; everything negative, from rude, to boastful which ends up to obnoxious. and there was something behind this array of character which she displays; she wasn't really happy with her personal life. things started to crumble down. and i wanted to be her so bad. and still do. even though she was just a fictional character.

i guess i read too much. and the fact that my hope gets too high sometimes. who else do i have to blame, if it isn't myself? but what do you know? i'll probably still be here, whining about how sore my heart is, right now. well, i have nothing to lose, or do i? guess not.

goodnight, universe. xx

Birdy - People Help The People

2011-12-12T20:24:00.003+08:00

it was definite that we co exist for a minute or two. we're on our separate ways now. we'll pretend like the past never exist and hopes for a different future. we had the same vision. focus on the word had. we hoped, and i got carried away. i dont want to play by your rules anymore. this is it. where i'll stray away from you and continue pretending that the world revolves around me and only me. till this sorrow slowly fades.

Copy Machine - City Night

2011-12-08T02:13:00.005+08:00

in the past, i would usually let jealousy eat me up alive and then my brain would give me a ballisticly ridiculous idea to prove them, that i am just as successful as them. but no. things would always backfire and the end of the day, i would always be happy with my own results, telling myself, why did i ever planned on that in the first place?

then, the same thing would come up again, on and on. and better still, i didnt get sick of it. there's something about me. that majority of the people who, probably hates me right now, that, i, myself hate it; i'm a big fan of jealousy. you got that right. i get, easily jealous. not intimidated, but just jealous. let me tell you why it isnt intimidation. if i feel intimidated, i'd prolly do something that even strangers from the net knows how much of an attention seeking whore, i am. and that is what, i am not. i'll admit, being successful is the sweetest revenge a woman can do and the fact that it eats me up alive, from the inside, disgust me. i really want to stop all this.

i can have so much hate towards you just because you made me angry and trust me, i can screw you up the same. unfortunately, that wont give me much acquired pleasure that i seek. call me a psycho. i wont give you a penny. sorry.

it makes me sad, knowing that other people around you, are actually doing something stupid and you know that you can see right pass through them. they're just the same like you. building up walls around themselves because they dont want anyone to know how sore their heart is and the wounds that arent getting any better. we're the same but different. you do utterly useless things to make your life look like you're back on the stable ground, just being happy with whatever you're doing and moving on and you know, that deep down, you want to be the direct opposite. where on the other hand, your friend's doing what you should've been doing in the beginning. but she gets all the attention, the fame, the "i dont give a fuck about the world", the aura that you, YOU, have been dreaming off. the only reason why you're not in her shoes, is because you were afraid to show the world who you truly are deep down. so now, you're just right here. reading up on what was meant to be you, was me, as well.

we've sinned and we're humans. so, it doesnt really create a harm there. we're born to make mistakes and for some people, to create more mistakes until you get the idea that whatever you're doing is wrong. all of us have failed but i'm pretty sure that the majority of us didnt stop trying. it's about the same solution for every problem.

and we have fell. hit rock bottom. with no one handing a helping hand.

in which, we struggle. because we want to stand.

again. on this same solid ground.

then you realise, it was also a success that you've been dreaming of.

because through out all the ordeal, you were alone.

goodnight, readers. xoxo

Ladyhawke - Magic

2011-12-03T19:20:00.001+08:00

credits: Stylites In Beijing

who said people from Beijing aint got style?

have a good wet and cold saturday, strangers! xoxo

Foals - One (Swedish House Mafia Cover)

2011-11-27T16:15:00.002+08:00

hello, strangers. as usual, ForeShop surprised me again with their new X-Ray Project. it went well. the whole planning, photography and everything else. kudos to the stylists who sure did a great job. the project is actually a simple one but they add in some touch to it. instead of showcasing stick figured models, they chose people from the streets. not really, from the streets though. just normal people who leads a normal everyday life. check the album out in their facebook page if you havent see it.

set that aside. i've finally found my favorite local brand, FEMMEX. many of you might've heard about Flesh Imp. well, this is the female version of the outstanding local brand. they featured our local 987fm DJ, Rozz in this photoshoot. you guys should probably pay their outlet a visit. they have a flagship store in Cathay Cineleisure and another one in Bugis Junction. so, check them out! and you'll prolly know why i love them too.

have a good fuzzy sunday, Singapore! xo

Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks

2011-11-23T22:01:00.001+08:00

i'd be lying if i were to say that i am doing okay. who would, in this kind of situation? am i right? i am left speechless, only with aching hearts to handle. another round of seeing myself hitting rock bottom. thought you'd change my perception but you were no different. i dont blame you and i wont blame you. was pretty much blinded by my own death trap.

then there comes a point when you feel like everything looks better when you're feeling numb. you dont want to move on because you're coping all of this bullshit on your own. but you have to because you dont have any other choice but just do.. you dont want anyone to see you cry because you think you're showing your weakness. guess, i'm better off this way? who needs pretentious little fucks to know whether or not you're doing fine, right?

"I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world" - Adam Levine

Tablo feat. DJ Friz - The Tide

2011-11-20T01:51:00.000+08:00

as the night sets in, i know i'm going to go through the next day with the exact same routine all over again. i dont have anyone now. not even you. i have to adapt with this unfamiliar surrounding. i'm going to keep myself occupied for as long as i could. i lay on my bed, continuing to pretend that everything's going to be all right, even when i know it wouldnt. what can i say? nothing. goodnight. xx

City and Colour - Love Dont Live Here Anymore

2011-11-10T14:53:00.005+08:00

Kim Tae Pyung aka Hyun Bin

well my first half of 2012's packed with travelling to the nearby countries and for the rest, it'll be filled with work, of course. current job's making me feel like i'm in school all over again. deadlines every week. fuuhhh. absurd is what i will call it. heh. other than that, i've been sitting at home, occupying my time with korean dramas and variety shows and movies and everything korean. so, dont mind me. that's all for now. good day.

"i just had to walk away. even if it hurts so much. knowing that my chest gets heavier with each step i take, i know this will all be temporary. i didnt even think on what's going to happen next for a second. i just braced my way through the dim lighted park. i told myself to go on. to move on. even if it takes a decade to forget about him. i didnt dare to look back because i know it'll only cause more pain to know that he's not there anymore. they told me that things would not get any worse, but it sure did. i'll let myself astray alone because i know that no one's going to be there for me in the toughest times. and this is where it will all begin. with me, crying myself to sleep.. for every single night"

Epik High - One

2011-11-06T01:24:00.001+08:00

no shave november.

well, it's been tough, i guess? i dont even know what am i saying. i cannot even be bothered. i'm going to start school. soon. and i mean it this time round. i need to do something that fills up my mind rather than emptiness. i want to be busy. well, if you're talking about my current job as a translator, that, already is a tough one. it seems easy. but not when you're stuck with a day and a half to finish up on your "a thousand sentences" assignment. frankly, it's quite boring. enough about me. i shall end this post with a smile. goodnight [:

Foals - Red Socks Pugie

2011-11-01T18:58:00.001+08:00

lonely nights spent with the cat

10cm - Healing

2011-10-29T23:06:00.002+08:00

i wont say that i was expecting the good things to come in the way but i would agree that i was hoping. i cannot take it anymore. is that so hard to understand? my pain? well, i'm not asking you to understand me in every aspect of my life but to just keep it all going. even if you're pretending. i kind of thought that you'd change my perception but guess i was wrong? i give up, literally. so dont even bother. or even try.

Tablo feat Naul - Airbag

2011-10-28T01:09:00.001+08:00

self destruct

Digitalism - Pogo

2011-10-23T21:14:00.004+08:00

I HAVE A THOUSAND AND ONE THINGS IN MY MIND
AND IT KEEPS ON MULTIPLYING EVERY NIGHT

xoxo, shitqueen

10cm - Hug Me

2011-10-17T00:39:00.006+08:00

last night's slight remark got me thinking, what if i've actually decided to be someone who's ultimately boring in this whole world? sitting at home on my off days watching everything that has got to do with korea and then continue watching anything that excites me on television and live with 10 cats? am i turning into a cat lady? guess not. i dont know where i stand either. but whatever that stranger said made reality snap back at me. i cant be here not doing anything the whole time, right? sigh. what is life. i have no clue and so do you.

well anyway, good luck for me at my first baby steps applying for internships. got a reply from a well known magazine. not going to name it, afraid that the chance of me getting the position will go zero. getting all geared up for the interview. wish me luck, all you four leave clovers in the world! homagad, i am so psyched! kyaaaaa~! god bless. xoxo

Gummy feat TOP - I'm Sorry

2011-10-04T02:35:00.011+08:00

truth is, all these while, i was anticipating for that day to happen. and apparently, your conscious level were about to hit a maximum zero. i tipped off a huge hint but i guess it certainly was a stupid move. instead, you carried on with your bullcrap conversations that actually meant alot to me. and it continued. the mixed signals; they were everywhere. i cant seem to find the right one. the one that you're feeling. i chose to play your game and guess what? you won. not saying that you mislead me into thinking that we were getting it all going, but misleading me to your true feelings. i cant quite figure them out myself, and i am not too sure about yourself either. all i needed was a confession, well, more of a confirmation, and that will end all this misery. it's amazing, isnt it. you were the only one who would let me lose my temper and step all over you. you let me be myself. my true self. i didnt had to pretend. you put up with me for no apparent reason. let me simply put it, you stood by me. and until this very day, you never once walked away from that spot. sigh. i am sorry for being selfish all this while and i, thank you for everything. love you dearly, old friend.
xoxo, shitking

INFINITE - Be Mine

2011-09-30T19:59:00.001+08:00

my life is ultimately boring and people call me arrogant and rude.

almost at the edge of losing hope and even if i did, it doesnt even matter.

nothing is different. work's occupying 20% of my life and the rest are just laziness.

i'll think of something good to talk about and i'll come back to this place.

for now, goodnight undying glory.

Maroon 5 - Goodnight, Goodnight

2011-08-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

Black Carpet (by IKR Clothing)

my inspiration. check out their webpage on the links above for anything.

from casual tees, accessories, bags; all for men and women. enjoy!

LeesSang feat. Tasha and Kwon Jungyeol - Turned Off The TV

2011-08-26T03:31:00.003+08:00

F279 by 4ORE

new lace collection from 4ORE Shop BKK is up on their facebook webpage. well of course, you have to add them up first, to check out their entire series of collection. apart from that, Idilfitri's coming up in four days and the house is nowhere near the word neat. not really looking forward to it though. and i cant believe that i am actually going to the F1 Night Race on 23rd September! all for GD&TOP and V.I. that's all. goodnight.

The Script - For The First Time

2011-08-19T01:39:00.001+08:00

"Life's going to be hard, regardless whether you get what you want or not, you know? You know, I might not get my vocals done in time. But whatever, man. I'll stay if I have to, y'know? Like, this album, like maybe it doesn't sell. Know, maybe nobody likes it. It's okay. We're still going to keep making music, I'm still going to keep on writing songs. Things like that are just inevitable." - Anthony Green, Circa Survive

i live up to this each time i am down and i feel like i have no where to go.

circa survive, city and color and nidji have always been playing a big role in my life.

their songs, they truly understand what i'm going through. and it doesnt stop there.

i am blessed to have parents who gives a shit about me and a cat who listens. xoxo

City and Colour - Like Knives

2011-08-18T01:41:00.004+08:00

just when i thought that shit was over, another one just had to crop up. i'm amazed at the amount of people who forgets me easily. i am, some what, surprised. well, i shouldnt be, because i know right from the start i was just an extra, much like a calefare. i dont need pretentious fuck to cheer me up since it's of no use, even right from the beginning. i simply quit. quit people like you. i shouldnt be amazed at the presence of these notorious human beings. maybe, i should treat them more like a non important endangered species. fuck. i can live on my own. why am i even depressed. they dont give a shit, so why did i even bother in the first place? i'm so angry at myself. yet, again. damn it. what's wrong with me? i think i need to migrate. fucking real soon. really, i beg all of you to stop acting like you care. i can live on my own. fuck off.

Foals - Spanish Sahara

2011-08-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yannis Philippakis

no words can describe how i feel. fucking emotional for no good reason.

all this bullshit is bringing me down and i should do something about this.

i swear to you, if ever i were to die of depression, the big joke's on you.

you, shitking. big joke's on you. go burn yourself alive for goodness sake.

Nidji - Saat Yang Tepat

2011-08-12T18:17:00.000+08:00

i wont say that i dont have any sense of direction. i'll simply put it as lost. i wish to move forward but i dont wish to face any surprises; even the good ones. i hate to admit after all the whines, that i am not comfortable with where i am. and sadly, a lazier part of me took control; i just dont want to do anything. not saying that things always took a bad turn each time i'm back up from the ground. maybe i'm just afraid of options. and i guess it's time for me to stop being so pessimistic. get a grip, of myself, for once.

Adele - Hometown Glory

2011-08-08T04:13:00.001+08:00

"you've been nothing but just a waste of space"

caught up with nothing else but work. great colleagues, weird manager. things are fine.

although i'm a week late, happy ramadhan to my fellow muslimin and muslimahs.

goodnight, for now. xoxo

2NE1 - It Hurts

2011-07-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

Kim Jong Kook

been doing nothing much but they seem to be productive, lately. went for a cycle, braced our way through an unknown neighbourhood, cleaning up my messy room, ironing clothes, rearranging items to bring for flea market. just about that, i guess? i'm still waiting for luc/sulaimi to give me an update about my job but at the mean time, i guess i go find one myself. i'm choking with money these days and i guess it's about time where i'll have to set shopping aside. phone bills tend to bug me, alot! and i hate it.

i wont say that things are going well for me, because it's obvious that it's a lie but i guess, i just have to face up to the fact that things are going to be alright. goodnight, fellow humans. xoxo

T.O.P - Oh Mom

2011-07-03T13:39:00.000+08:00

WARPAINT!

since laneway festival wasnt enough for me, and perhaps, the rest, my favorite girls, WARPAINT, is back! they're coming to singapore for a second time round and this time to perform at Powerhouse, St James Power Station. well, i'm pretty much surprised that it's held at a location like that. but anywho, the tickets are pretty cheap! so yes, just in case any of you are interested in going, book them now at sistics! see you all, there!

xoxo, have a beautiful week ahead readers.

G Dragon - Obsession

2011-06-20T14:02:00.000+08:00

Fore Shop, Bangkok Thailand

let me introduce to you guys my number one favorite cheap&chic concept store. they design clothes, specially for under grad teens and young working adults. trust me, when i say cheap, i mean it. their clothes are ranged from polka dots to stripes and to plain, whatever that you get from this store, is totally worth your money. i would rather say that they're a trendsetter than following the trend. the pieces might go from dull to vibrant colors in which you just cant stop staring. so, just in case you guys needed new clothes which is different from the rest, just click on ForeShop BKK above in my thrillers' section.

apart from that, i've been thinking about venturing out of my comfort zone, lately. although they already set up a store in london, i was thinking if i should bring them into singapore so that they'll get a better exposure. set the rental fees and location wise aside, i need to get my freaking diploma cert first, before making confirmations on all this. have a good day, readers! xoxo

Jay Park - Abandoned

2011-06-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

just in case, you're wondering whoever the hell i am.

and i got to admit, i kind of miss lazing around at home. this is all bullshit.

10cm - 오늘밤은 어둠이 무서워요

2011-05-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

Bali, Indonesia

i have a pretty big appetite when it's in the wee hours and none in the day. goodnight.

Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon

2011-05-21T02:05:00.001+08:00

Bangkok, Thailand

i just realised that travelling's my only escapade. that is where, i can do what i want knowing that my parents are there, acknowledging what i am doing and doesnt object to it. i feel different. the time spent in another country with a whole different culture, makes me feel at ease. i know i dont have anything to worry about as long as i am there. i dont have any deadlines, only for my departure that is, or problems. it's like, as soon as i step out of the jet plane, i am free to do my own decisions. and i know, that's my wonderland.

this is where your memory fades away with a whole new one, waiting to be installed

Adele - Someone Like You

2011-04-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

cause we are all humans and everyone has a high expectation of everyone else. it doesnt matter, if you're young or old, rich or poor, single or married, you are still a part of their expectations. i'm kind of tired in this unsatisfactory world but i'm still finding ways in making myself seem useful. i've got to prepare myself for a full time job, very soon. again, my life is boring. nothing will change. goodnight.

Big Bang - Somebody To Love

2011-04-19T01:08:00.001+08:00

they told me pain is temporary but i dont know what is temporary anymore. they said that i'll get back up very soon, but i forgot what was it like being strong. i've been repeating this way too many times, i'm sick of doing the same routine everyday. i really need to grab my own life. i dont want to be common. i dont want to be boring as time goes by. i'm getting agitated with myself. i dislike the things that i do. i want to learn new things. this is mundane. my whole life is mundane. and i desperately need a closure. a closure for all this confusion.

Robyn - Dancing On My Own

2011-03-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

my ideal man, Choi Seung Hyun aka T.O.P

Kasabian - Underdog

2011-03-18T16:47:00.001+08:00

truth is, i forgot what it feels like falling in love. i forgot what it feels like flying solo. i forgot about being independent. i literally gave up on everything because i had no other choice but to move on again. yeah, you're happy now. but who cares about me. my situation. telling myself time to time that you're at the losing end, didnt made myself feel a whole lot better. because you're in love. happy all over again. i had to dug my way through this filthy ground in order to prove to myself, that i am strong. strong, once again. but i feel like i am lacking of something. something which i dont even know exist. and i know it's around me and the only problem is that i cant figure out; where what who why how. i see myself as a workaholic now because that's the only thing that helps me pass by through the day and get freshen up the very next day for a whole same routine. no, i'm not happy nor rejoiced. i'm just mundane. financial problems engaging with my life, just suck big time. i wont say that i dont have friends because i have plenty but useful ones arent many. well, the actual fact is that, i am sick and tired of whining on what i am lacking of when i know that i am so much worthy at the other end. i get stuck with books, teas and musics because at the end of the day, the non living things are the ones that made my day. it's okay if you dont get my point. but what i want to say is that, please grow the fuck up. we're all young adults. stop complaining, do something about it. if you can live without it, then leave it. case's close. goodbye.

Björk - All Is Full Of Love

2011-02-25T03:08:00.000+08:00

Radit dan Jani

Yesayer - Ambling Alp

2011-02-16T00:49:00.002+08:00

hello, world.
meet usavich and eli.
i miss usavich.
okay, goodnight. ♥

Holy Fuck - Red Lights

2011-02-06T00:51:00.002+08:00

he feels, then he listens. and there'll be a moment, where he will disobey what he had long believed in and finds what he needs to know. then he'll fall. get it all messed up and create a whole new problem which was avoidable. but he knows what he wants now. he'll clear this up and before you know it, he's gone.

Warpaint - Undertow

2011-01-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

one more day to laneway festival! have a goodnight, everyone. [:

Beach House - Better Times

2011-01-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

you know what's on my mind and life at this very second? imma list them for you:

been yearning to get a cut on my fringe. it's too long and nice at the same time.

laneway festival tickets are on my palms and crystal castles is this weekend!

life's been tumbling, climbing, toppling and reaching at it's highest peak. yes, what a bore.

working for school and other financial matter and shall stop spending on impulse.

ouh and yah, i dont feel like celebrating my birthday at all. sigh. what a trash. kbye.

and we shall let our feelings go; letting them fly high, being free like a bird.

Foals - After Glow

2011-01-08T01:14:00.004+08:00

I know I could not have lasted very long at all

Without you here to break my fall

I know I could not stand alone for very long

Without you there to take my coat

'Cause you were better than whatever came before

Before you ran out and left me on the 100th floor

Get out, and go and find everyone who cared for you

They, won't be there to see you tomorrow

Get out, don't forget everything you cared for

For it, won't be nothing more tomorrow

No I could not do the things I did before

Leave you waiting there, by that open door

You were better than whatever came before

Without you here and my heart broken to the core

Get out, and go and find everyone who cared for you

They, won't be there to see you tomorrow

Get out, don't forget everything you cared for

For it, won't be nothing more tomorrow

No I could not stand to be alone for long

There's something missing in the ever after glow

You were better than whatever came before

Without you here to save me, to save me from the dark

Get out, and go and find everyone who cared for you

They, won't be there to see you tomorrow

Get out, don't forget everything you cared for

For it, won't be nothing more tomorrow

Afrojack@Club Ivy BANGDUCK vs BANGKOK

2010-12-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

WHOOP! WHOOP! THE DAY HAS FINALLY COME!

BALI, PLEASE MAKE DECEMBER AWESOME.

ZOUKOUT'S NEXT WEEK AND MY 2010's GOING TO BE SWEET.

OKAY, GOODBYE MOTHERFUCKERS. ♥ ♥ ♥

we get paper cuts and dented cars, some things aren't just worth repaired.

Kings Of Leon - Pyro

2010-11-19T18:32:00.000+08:00

I dig my toes into the sand

The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds

Strewn across a blue blanket

I lean against the wind

Pretend that I am weightless

And in this moment I am happy.. happy

I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand

The sky resembles a back lit canopy

With holes punched in it

I'm counting UFOs

I signal them with my lighter

And in this moment I am happy.. happy

I wish you were here

Wish you were here

The world's a roller coaster

And I am not strapped in

Maybe I should hold with care

But my hands are busy in the air saying

I wish you were here

I wish you were

I wish you were here

Wish you were here

City and Colour - How Come Your Arms Are Not Around Me

2010-11-07T16:03:00.000+08:00

So I walked into the haze

And a million dirty ways

Now I see you lying there

Like a lie low losing air air

Black rocks and shoreline sand

Still that summer I cannot bare

And I wipe the sand of my arms

Let´s bannish the horror the place that you´d wanna

Leave the horror here

Forget the horror here

forget the horror here

Leave it all down here

It´s future rust and then it´s future dust

Forget the horror here

forget the horror here

Leave it all down here

It´s future rust and then it´s future dust

Now the waves they drag you down

Carry you to broken ground

Though I find you in the sand

Wipe you clean with dirty hands

So god damn this boiling space

Lets bannish the horror the place that you´d wanna

Leave the horror here

Forget the horror here forget the horror here

Leave it all down here

It´s future rust and then it´s future dust

I´m the fury in your head

I´m the fury in your bed

I´m the ghost in the back of your head

Cause I am

I´m the fury in your head

I´m the fury in your bed

I´m the ghost in the back of your head

Cause I am

I´m the fury in your head

I´m the fury in your bed

I´m the ghost in the back of your head

Cause I am

Forget the horror here

forget the horror here

Leave it all down here

It´s future rust and then it´s future dust

I'm the fury in your head

I'm the fury in your bed

I´m the ghost in the back of your head

Cause I am

I'm the fury in your head

I'm the fury in your bed

I´m the ghost in the back of your head

Cause I am

I'm the fury in your head

I'm the fury in your bed

I´m the ghost in the back of your head

Cause I am

The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition

2010-10-29T18:29:00.007+08:00

So you decided to see me out of the blue

Should I let you come over

I think you’re doing fine

That girl in your arms

Does she know where you come from

Almost made me move out of town

You don’t want me to be around

But I stayed anyway

Just in case

Finding reasons to hate you more than before

Like how you said you would call

But never at all

Got rid off your number that I know by heart

You left your things at my place

As if I have all the space

Cause you know I don’t mind

Just come back when you think it’s time

I’m all black and white inside

Monotonous from left to right

I decorate my house with things you love

Just in case you show up
In case you show up

Crystal Castles - Black Panther

2010-10-23T19:12:00.001+08:00

"Personally, i've never moved on over anything. It's okay to be down, we're only human. Screw everyone who says that he's not worth it, cause everyone is. The main thing is always to soar high in the sky after every downfall. Always look on the bright side of life." - ♥ Nat

finally got myself a job and work's been okay. colleagues are okay.

and i am looking forward to school though. thank you, min wei for your help! [:

amin and i. things are complicated and yes, i still do love him. time will tell. ♥

well, let's set things aside

i am so looking forward to Bali. i cant wait to let myself free once i set foot in the arrival hall.

Laidback Luke is playing on ZoukOut alongside with Guetta, Tieto and AfroJack.

things are going to get feisty in there. have yet to buy tickets. heh heh.

and i heard that Crystal Castles coming down to Singapore on my birthday!

double jackpot for a lucky girl like me. who knows, it might be triple? kbai.

each night you stare at the ceilings because you dont know what might happen tomorrow.

Nidji - Ku Takkan Bisa

2010-10-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

LOOK!

something arrived in my mail, today. [:

there's one more to come, though. kbye. :D

Lykke Li - My Love

2010-10-13T02:49:00.000+08:00

she is way better than those trashy singers these days. (Y)

Follow these instructions

Do exactly as I do

Lean your shoulders forward

Let your hands slide over to my side

Move your body closer

Let your heart meet mine

Love is the harmony

Desire is the key

Love is the melody

Now sing it with me

Come a little closer

Take a look at me

This light is so obvious

I want you to see

Come a little closer

Look me in the eye

Then repeat with me one more time

Love is the harmony

Desire is the key

Love is a symphony

Now play it with me

Love is the harmony

Desire is the key

Love is a symphony

Now play it with me

You'll be the rythm and I'll be the beat

Then I'll be the rythm and you'll be the beat

And love, the shoreline, where you and I meet

Love is the harmony

Desire is the key

Love is a symphony

Come sing some with me

Lykke Li - Tonight [Live Acoustic]

2010-10-10T14:36:00.001+08:00

guess this is it. the end. a final closure to a wasted relationship.

let him go. that's the only way where i can be happy.

hello, singlehood. but too bad, the tattooist is pretty yummy.

have a good week ahead, fellow reader. goodbye.

Gio - Bila Cinta

2010-10-07T08:17:00.003+08:00

i cant seem to find the connection in me and amin anymore.
not that i want him to go but it's just not there.
you know, i've had enough of all the things that are going around.
it's not fun anymore, i dont feel happy anymore.
and therefore, i come to a point into telling myself,
that if he were to leave once again, i dont wish for him to come back.
it's tiring. because all this shits, it's a continuous cycle.
he makes me do the talking, trying to make us happy and stuffs.
we were not that like that, we need communication.
where's the spark? where is it? i hate thissssssssssss.
all i want is for things to work out. let it be like how it was before.

i am sorry amin if i've been the worst among the rest. xoxo.

Bla Bla Blast! - A Riot In My Baby's Bedroom

2010-09-29T18:13:00.012+08:00

Radit dan Jani

well, for amin and i, everything's settled back to it's places but on the other hand, i know i am letting myself indulge in something that nobody wants to. idk. sometimes, you just have to take risks, i guess. so yesterday, i went for an interview for WingTai and then head to ION Clarks for another one. met up with aishah in the evening and duhh? gossiped! had dinner at far east plaza. and off to home we go. the interview went okay? i really need a fucking job so bad. i need money to buy things. necessary things. well at least, to me. good god! meeting khi tomorrow afternoon to visit cikgu. heh! which means i have to wake up early. ]: i'm waiting for ma and pa to get ready to have dinner. but they're watching teevee. tsk! kbye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NUR INSYIRAH! I LOVE YOU.
I AM ALWAYS A PHONE CALL AWAY. MUAH! ♥♥♥

just when we leave our own lives astray, we've found happiness in another world.

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Head Will Roll

2010-09-27T13:43:00.003+08:00

FUN FACT

you're already procrastinating when you tell yourself to stop procrastinating.

here is my daily routine:

wake up, steal the freaking modem

logged in to all the webpage i've been missing

do my things, especially on ebay

return the modem at 1500hours

pretend that nothing happened and watched teevee
remember if there is anything that i had to do
vacuum if i feel that the floor is dirty

head to the kitchen to see if there's any luandry
purchase newspaper, search for jobs

laze around the whole fucking day
jot job interviews on a paper

read magazines, newspapers, watch teevee (again)
write in my notebook if there's anything i've missed

then laze in my bed (again), smoke a cigarette

listen to panda and off to space

i dont really like what's happening and i know i have to make a change. kbye.

The Postal Service - We Will Become Silhouettes

2010-09-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

SPIRAL LIGHTS, BURNING BRIGHT.

i wish to fly to new york and have the longest stay, ever.

i want to wake up from sweet dreams, believing that it will stay as a dream.

amin, i've never regret being in this relationship. it's okay, you know.

maybe, we're bound to fail at the end of it all. goodbye.

i will be sneaking around, making faces; please baby, dont surprise me.

The Temper Trap - Love Lost

2010-09-06T00:55:00.001+08:00

PAIN HAS NEVER BEEN SO BRILLIANT

everything's just absurd. things are not going well.

weekends were pretty fucked up but i'm okay.

have been listening to blue sky noise as a lullaby.

maybe things are going to be okay, very soon.

have a great week ahead, beautiful people.

because it's all build upon a burial ground, it just doesnt feel right.

Circa Survive - 1000 Witnesses

2010-09-01T01:53:00.002+08:00

Circa Survive's third album, Blue Sky Noise

the new album's out and about now and their music still remains the same. although some of them feels that they sound a little mainstream but nevertheless, that's their opinion, right? somehow, this album's more to the instrumental side of them. there's a couple of tracks with their, famously known for "hight pitched" guitar tune but the rest was just slow moving piece of track which on the other hand, soothes your ears. well, i have to say my favourite track from the album is Frozeen Creek due to it's lyrics and the sound of the music. never did i know, they would create such songs. Anthony Green did pitch in some phrases from his own solo like "The More You Get, The Less You Are" in one of the tracks, which pretty much makes you try to remember "where the hell did i heard that phrase from ehhhh?" hah. i dont know about you circa survive's fan, but for me, i would seriously say that this album is great. [: but, if you feel like you didnt "feel it" in this album, it's okay though. just remember what Anthony Green said in Sequences interview, "Like this album, like, maybe, nobody likes it. It's okay. We're still going to keep making music, I'm still going to keep writing songs. Things like that are just inevitable." one thing's for sure, this band, they really stretch out to their fans. placing themselves in our shoes. really, what more can we ask for from a band. so, go get your copies now, jugabees! ouh and by the way, when he was being interviewed, he was actually recording for Through The Desert Alone and no kid, it's another great track in the album too. heh. kbye!

ps: maybe, i shall do more of this album review kind of thing. heh. goodnight.

because we'll usually dont get what we deserve, even when it's a tough race.

Metro Station - Control (DJ Kris P & Steve Aoki remix)

2010-08-27T15:15:00.005+08:00

“Baby, please, baby please don’t give up on me.
Don’t, don’t give up on me. Because I can, I want to see you again.

Baby I’m going to fix my arm and I’m going to, I’m gonna see you again.
I’m going to kiss you, and I’m going to hold you again.”

“I don’t want you to hold me again.”

it's pretty much a fucked up situation when shits like this happen.

i'm being indecisive as always. have a beautiful weekend, martians. kbye.

Yuna - Backpacking Around Europe

2010-08-21T13:55:00.004+08:00

hi, baby. we're hitting the number five pretty soon.

time flies like a sandfly but hell yeargh! we're doing good!

i want to eat ice cream and drink bubble tea with you.

you're turning a year older in 48631875hours time!

okay bye, baby! i love you and see you soon! ♥♥♥

please dont let this turn into something it's not.

Anthony Green - First Day Of Work At A Microscope Store

2010-08-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

life's been pretty much blissed at the moment.

work's going to be left hanging very soon.

ramadhan's been great though it's just the start.

gathering here and there are making it all worthwhile.

amin's turning a year older soon and he's the best. ♥

need to stop spending on ridiculous stuff. MBMJ. ah!

will update more often, martians. take care! kbye.

i can't wait to understand the reason; i have yet to translate.

The Sunshine Underground - Wake Up

2010-07-28T02:34:00.003+08:00

the only movie which i'll watch a gazillion of times.

the story is simple, with a little twist here and there.

goodnight, jugabees. have a beautiful week ahead.

ps: i love you, amingsterz. ♥

MSTRKRFT - Heartbreaker [Laidback Luke Remix]

2010-07-18T03:47:00.006+08:00

JIMBARAN, BALI

date's all set for me to head to bali by the end of this year.

and if i'm not wrong, well be staying in a villa! YES! V I L L A !!

maybe for some of you, who thinks that staying over a villa is boring.

but damn you bitches. you're freaking wrong. heh heh.
but on the other hand, who knows change of plans? we'll rip of our cash on hotels? [:

anyway, i have been doing a little research on "Must Do Things in Bali".
eventually, Yahoo! Travel was a great help and they listed everything down.
I AM SO FUCKING FEXCITED, JUGABEES. DAMN FEXCITED! ^__^

apart from all that, money issues have been good since mother payed half of my bills.
i, owe her, alot more than the years that i've lived. i swear. it's blissed.
so, since bali is going to be all about "shopping, shopping", i've set a side some cash!
heh heh. that means, if i want to splurge on the littlest things, there wont be a nag! :D

life's been pretty smooth sailing lately, except for education. MEGASAD.
all these shite costs tonnes of money and i really mean it when i say tonnes.
amin and i, we've been doing pretty well lately. yes, he can be a bitch too.
ooooooh, work. ]: things have been going through a whirlwind.
and i need a new job so badly. gee. D: anyone? help? hah. -_-

off to sleep now, bitches. got to wake up a little early to send eli for a repair.
he's not doing so good. i think imma change eli to blackberry or iPhone 4. hah. kbye.

and we were lovers, now we can't be friends; fascination ends, here we go again.

Kid Cudi, MGMT & Ratatat - Pursuit of Happiness [Steve Aoki Remix]

2010-07-11T15:37:00.003+08:00

HI! I MISS YESTERDAY'S CROWD REAL BAD. DXO WAS AYE-OKAY.

ZOUK BABY NEXT TIME, OKAY DARLINGS? ♥ LOVE YOU GIRLS. KBYE.

let's paint a picture of the perfect place, and they got it better than anyone else.

Crystal Castles - Alice Practice

2010-07-06T18:44:00.001+08:00

I LEFT MY HEART IN DETROIT.

IT'S MAKING IT'S WAY TO BALI, NOW.

howdy, earthlings? i've been sitting at home, smoking crack.

heh, not! watching whose line is it anyway, the whole day.

family members cant stop gossiping ah. so noisy. chet!

i miss amin. and i stopped feeding my ego cow. how about you?

air-con men coming over tomorrow, sad. kbye, jugabees.

would you tell me, tough love style, puts judical weight on me?

DJ Tiësto and Sneaky Sound System - I Will Be Here

2010-06-27T14:14:00.012+08:00

"GOOD MORNING, BABY! I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS AND FOREVER ♥♥♥"
- ♥ amin

there was actually more to the morning text message but i lazy to type down? hah.

we've been cranky for the past few weeks, but i'm glad it's over now.
the fact that he knows how much i love morning text messages makes me happy, y'know.

diet, restrictions, exercise; everything's jumbled up into my daily routine now.

got to start working soon, already. i need moolah as much as they need me.

well, on the other hand, getting the "one bag and a pair of shoes" per month deal

it's not doing so well for the bag part, actually. yes, not-doing-ouh-so-well.

this month's bill's have yet to come and i'm pouring money like water on bags, already.
perhaps, now you know the reason to why the deal's not doing ouh-so-well. heh!
family's planning to head to bali in december and we're trying a new airline.

plans for BKK with aishah is still on the process and i'm saving up a dollar a day, already!

dash berlin and digitalism will be playing next week in zouk! any kakis? ^__^

well, that's it, i guess? life's to mundane to be colourful when i dont have crayons. kbye.

let's make believe of what's at stake here's more than just your reputation.

Circa Survive - Holding Someone's Hair Back

2010-06-17T03:30:00.009+08:00

life: pretty much the same? bumpy rides.
work: mechanical fault is being fucked real bad.
school: need money for sup, remodule and shitez.
home: pretty pleasant, mom&dad - the usuals: NAG
friends: come and go - the great ones stayed. (Y)
familia: hopping on to an airplane in less than 24hours time!
♥boyfriend: a good boy, in fact a great one. a keeper.

i dont really know what to boast about in this blog. no, not anymore. well, have i?
some unexpected things tend to happen along the way: be it good or bad. yes/no
going all out to par..tay over the next few weeks. *hints* majorlazer & digitalism.
financial wise, i'm getting a little tad too dry, nowadays. really. and fuck yeah, it sucks. D:
been having a girl time out with aishah & syirah. laughing over the most random things.
to summarise things up: home is only peaceful in the wee hours of the morning. ^__^

well, i guess i better start packing for my "not-so-huu-haa-trip" before i tuck in. [:
imma meet baby, maybe later in the evening for a good long chitty chat. kbye, world.

numb is the new deep, done with the old me & talk is the same cheap as it's been.

Nidji - Dosakah Aku

2010-05-31T14:39:00.003+08:00

Dosakah aku mencintaimu

Mendampingimu inginkanmu

Aku manjadi diri sendiri

Tak peduli apa kata dunia

Ku nanti hari ketika

Cinta datang cinta menang

Jadi sayangku bertahanlah

Bila terkadang mulutnya kejam

Peluklah aku jangan menyerah

Mereka bukan hakim kita

Bintang yang mempertemukan kita

Cinta yang mempertahankan kita

Ooh...tuhan dengarkan doa
Dari cinta yang terlarang

Rasa yang mempersatukan kita

Cinta yang mempertahan kita

Ooh...tuhan dengarkan doa

Dari cinta yang terlarang

Cinta dan rasa bersatu di doa

Berharap cinta kita yang terlarang

Berharap cinta kita yang kan menang

LMFAO - Shots feat. Lil Jon

2010-05-24T13:28:00.001+08:00

STREET LIGHTS AND WHITE LINES.

heading off to another super short getaway.

this time round, lots of shopping i suppose.

meeting baby in less than 24hours time.

need. to. par..tay! chalet/clubbeh. kbye.

it is a powerful sign of your existence, a constant confession of your lust for life.

The Bloody Beetroots feat. OMGITM

2010-05-13T21:26:00.001+08:00

wrote this quote off the video sequences from circa survive.

his words, they're just so plain but meaningful. i still love you, ag.

The Bloody Beetroots - WARP 1977 ft Steve Aoki

2010-05-08T11:40:00.001+08:00

WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL LAST NIGHT. SERIOUSLY.

ENDLESS MUSIC, CHAMPAGNES, TUMBLING DOWN, ACHING THIGHS.

WHOA. HE MADE MY FUCKING NIGHT, ALRIGHT? KBYE.

Snow Patrol - Shut Your Eyes

2010-05-06T23:47:00.003+08:00

i've not been talking much about catching ups which i've done for the past few months. yes, i have been doing it at the wittiest amount of time that i could find. i still remember the time where i met reenee like a month ago or so. the last time we met was like 2 years ago, i suppose? we talked about lives, about the people around us, how fast they've changed. then we started talking about relationships, the ups and downs of it. and ironically, for someone whom i'm not close to, she knows me pretty well. giving me the right amount of encouragements. it was sweet. we shall, meet soon, okeh baby? <3

on the other hand, relationships are bittersweet. with the ups and downs, not forgetting those "i hate you" moments. but at the end of the day, reconciling time just round it up and made sure that we all learn from our mistakes.

i'm suppose to be sleeping right now, but i slept in the evening despite waking up in the late afternoon. yes, da macam babi. rezki's a very pretty cat. heh heh. meeting mijiao and veloury later on for a study session. then off to meet ais and akmal, at zouk. or jacklyn and the rest. not fucking sure. amin's being a mega control king now. fml. kbye.

and our bones are broken still, but our hearts are joined still.

Mew - Apocalypso

2010-05-03T12:58:00.001+08:00

this ahpok here, is going to be send for grooming tomorrow! :D

MEHEEHEHE. REZKI'S GOING TO BE BOTAK! HUHU.

school's over and done with, but i have to remodule basic economics.

going to fold some laundry and then meet my babies, later. kbye.

hear the wind whispering your name; twice the encouragement, of the real you.

The Bloody Beetroots - Public Enemy

2010-04-27T01:49:00.005+08:00

Where do all the lovers meet with one another,

In an effort to uncover what has happened to the silent days?

The sprite ones on the corner, dream of something warmer

A semblance of their old ways, what has happened to our handmade days?

Oh no!

Way back when, we were the latest around

We lined and we painted this town

Their faces are green and they don’t know what they’ve done.

We can pull a map out detailing the direct route

Young ones grow anxious to proclaim their advances to the fray

If you don’t wake up and the truth never comes up

We will never have our old way, we will never have a right of way

Oh no!

Way back when, we were the latest around
We lined and we painted this town
Their faces are green and they don’t know what they’ve done.

Won’t you show us where you heart is?

Mat Kearney - Where We Gonna Go From Here

2010-04-24T12:06:00.002+08:00

we finally reconciled, and it's a good feeling. but there's a little turn off here and there.

not meeting baby, anytime soon and i'm getting ready for work now. closing shift siol.

i think i want to go for a jog later tonight. gee. and yah, i miss swimming. D:

clock hits 12 yo, got to leave now so that i wont be late for workeh, again. pfft. kbye.

for all the tears you've cried, you've been way too strong now for all your life.

Keane - Crystall Ball

2010-04-19T01:39:00.002+08:00

"I dream of a dreamcatcher, catching my dreams and tangling them in it's thread;

leaving it on it's own, figuring a way out of the mess.

Then, it popped in my mind, that the only way for us to achieve our dreams,

we have to accept every hassle moment in our lives;
because we want it so bad and it wouldn't mind any of us, not a tiny bit.

So then, maybe, that is why love works that way too.

To make it work for the both of us,

we got to learn to go through the hard times together.
Amin, I love you, today, tomorrow, now and never, never."

♥ shitking

Donna Lewis - I Love You, Always, Forever

2010-04-13T01:31:00.005+08:00

HELLO, SORROW. I DARE YOU TO PUSH ME OFF THE ROOFTOP.

a bag and a pair of shoe a month makes me happy.

then the rest of it, off to my fucking cellphone bills. (Y)

i think i'm handling this matter pretty smoothly, ey?

heh, whatever it is, i need to top up on my apparels.

many, many, tops and bottoms. hehehehe. kbye.

but then we go and we hit the wall, when nothing has changed and nothing's wrong.

Circa Survive - Get Out

2010-04-06T00:39:00.017+08:00

i need to capture a great photo from this expressway, that is, with a mini tripod.

i dont really know what to blog about, besides the fact that i am happy for wherever i stand now. other than that, school's been a total nutcrack with assignments datelines settling in this week. nonetheless, this calls for freedom continuing right after the weekend kicks in. and not forgetting work, though. i am officially home and hella yeargh, baby! that was a superbly short getaway. stress relief massage and body scrub, retail therapy + A&W. not forgetting a good creambath for the whole scalp, i felt like a queen. everything was just there; it was complete. i'm supposed to meet baby tomorrow but he keeps on bugging me to meet him on the 13th itself. i know i should be feeling excited but i think i'm starting to sound like a small brat. -_- anyway, circa survive's new album is coming out pretty damn soon. it's called sequence. i think imma check HMV. i still havent get my hands on avalon. urgh. D: well, other than having to settle the bills, i need to get myself a blackberry and an iPhone by june. just for the fun of it. (Y) furthermore, i can BBM for free! hehehe. ~~singaporeans~~ fucken sleepy now. off to sleep, jugabees. goodnight, world.

cause i need you, like money needs us; i need you here like you've always been.

Metric - Fron Row [acoustic]

2010-04-02T08:14:00.002+08:00

off to a super short getaway, beautiful people.

hair spa, massages, shopping. welcome, sisterhood!

and baby, imma miss you many many. kbye.

where's the rhythm if everything is deceiving.

Kylie Minogue - In Your Eyes

2010-04-01T03:28:00.005+08:00

FIGHT WITH YOUR FORK, EAT WITH YOUR FIST.

Clash of the Titans premiere's today, but yeah. baby=no cashieszxczxz.
my mobile bills are the fucking bomb, record breaker in the family.
looking forward to working this week, no reason. fun ah. sembarang.
batam in less than 48hours and i need my opium baby with me, now.
he's bringing me to underwater world. yay. yay. cannot w a i t. hehe.
by the way, i am not looking forward to graduating, at all. urgh.
and i want sushi buffet again, yes. again. hahaha. fucking fungry. kbye.

come, come, come into my world; won't you lift me up, up, high upon your love?

Switchfoot - Dare You To Move [acoustic]

2010-03-24T14:40:00.001+08:00

boyfriend's being an asshole as usual. true friends dont come and go, seriously.

complications everywhere, even with relatives. omgee. and i call my cat, tacky now. -_-

just for fun. GP first deadline is next week and i still cant quite figure out yet.

examinations results was okay, SBS can suck my fake hugenourmous balls. tsk.

i miss eating sushi and char kuey la. haiya. i want to go out but no friend. kbye.

; and i'm just a ghost, still they echo me, echo me in circles.

Paramore - The Only Exception

2010-03-14T16:44:00.000+08:00

all time favourite.

FUCKING HIATUS.

kbye.

Pixie Lott - When Love Takes Over [cover]

2010-03-07T16:56:00.003+08:00

school cannot make it, late for work, late, rush, tacit aria's last song, apple tea, mcspicy, mcflurry, nadiah vomitting, bowling, rezki, riddles, jokes, life, illuminati, NR1 tak menjadi, taxi, 5 people, smart cab cannot make it, withdraw cash, green tea, punggol, sengkang, geylang, yishun, woodlands, SGD31.80, 0240hours, nets, rezki waiting for food with sleepeh face, shower, lazy, rezki knocking off on desktop, "childish" internet warfares, sleep and welcome, a whole brand new day.

1600hours to 1700hours, hydhir and akmal, S11, ais, last cabin, train humid like shit, change cabin at yio chu kang, matreps and minahrep fucken rude, cannot take it change at ang mo kio, better train, them again at bishan _|_ then orchard, ion, rubi, brown flats, dunkin donut, borders, illuminati, catbook, birkenstock, epic centre, polka dot earpiece, zara kids, hydhir bought his stuffs, far east plaza, ouh glory zipper headband, ramen ten, sushi, tomyum ramen, sushi jatuh, mother giving out warning text messages, whatever application, hydhir and josepahine [i think], wisma atria, F21 nothing, gap kids, akmal and hydhir acted like kids, akmal bought his tee shirt, the six, charlie chaplin tak menjadi, 313@Somerset, lever 3, cashier tutup, got that beautiful bitch, TCC tutup, suqiman end his shift, L4D2, stand up comedy, da macam adek beradik, toilet, cabby, belanja, yishun, accident, woodlands, SGD31.20, 0250hours, shower, lipat kain, rezki acting cute, tried on those 2 bitchescxz, talk to faruq, blabber about whatever, ketam terperanjat abeh cepit ikan, ikan dying in vain, eat pizza, orang kahwin, sleepeh, sleep and the morning sun. kbye.

I’ll write you a song and it won't be hard to sing

It will be a natural anthem, familiar it will seem

I will rally all the workers on strike for better pay

and its chorus will resound and boost morale throughout the day

I’ll write you a song and I hope that you won't mind

Because all the names and places I have taken from real life

So please don't be upset at this portrait that I paint

It may be a little biased, but at least I spelt your name right

Kid Cudi ft. Pitbull - Day and Night

2010-03-02T00:06:00.001+08:00

Cheshire Cat is Rezki. FUG YEARGH!

MSTRKRFT- Bounce [The Bloody BeetRoots Remix]

2010-02-19T19:37:00.005+08:00

Remember when I caught your eye
You gave me rainbows and butterflies
We did enjoy our happiness?
When our love was over, I was such a mess

I smiled at you and you smiled back
That’s when I knew; There ain’t no turning back
You said you loved me, and I did too
Now though it’s over
I still love you

You’re in my mind, you’re in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
All my friends said you’d break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

I tried to fight it, I tried so hard
And every day, I pray to god
That you and me were meant to be
But you had another; you had a lover

And now its gone, I don’t know why
I feel like crying, just want to die
I can’t look at you and you know why
No I tried so hard
To catch your eye

You’re in my mind, you’re in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
All my friends said you’d break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

Bright Eyes - No Lies, Just Love

2010-02-18T14:27:00.002+08:00

Foo Fighters - Pretender

2010-02-13T02:23:00.000+08:00

ouhgaaaaay. well it's been long since i wanted to talk about this. yes, long!

well, many of you know that i'm a mad cow disease fan for anthony green.

and apparently, there is someone who looks just like him on survivor! okeh, a little.

keh fine, he already won a million dollah and now back on heroes vs villains season.
yes, suckers. i watch survivor. hahaha. come on? the games are exciting what!

nevertheless, he makes me happy. it's like i get to virtually see anthony green naked. hah.

fat hope, i know! well, i present to you.. *cheyh! like fucking real*

JT Thomas Junior

HAHAHAHA! COME ON! I KNOW LA, HE'S LIKE A "COUNTRY" BOY.

AT THE VERY LEAST, HE GIVES ME PLEASURE EVERY FRIDAYS. -_-

BUT STILL, NOT EVEN ONE PERSON CAN BEAT THIS HEART THROBE HERE.

AWWWW. I LOVE YOU EVER SINCE I HEARD YOU SING, AG. HAH. KBYE.

i needed somewhere to hang my head, without your noose.

Bloc Party - Blue Light

2010-02-10T13:17:00.000+08:00

your spirit is in a hyper mode, and i got no remote control to shut it off.

Anthony Green - She Loves Me So

2010-02-04T18:38:00.008+08:00

if it is really love, tell me why do we keep disconneting?

ouh i get it. it's okay to fall in love with out letting anyone know.

but why are you putting on a one man show in this love story?

endless of questions, starting with why and i know it's never going to end.

maybe i shall just let everything unfold and we'll just roll.

so come on, baby. is this how you want the story to be told?

Paramore - Use Somebody (Kings of Leon Cover)

2010-02-03T02:33:00.001+08:00

credits: airshotgun photography

sorry about the full moon, though. goodnight, world.

how do we pick ourselves up now; if the clouds bring the rain before we evaporate.

Placebo - Special K

2010-02-01T01:08:00.002+08:00

somehow, my 2010 wasnt really much of a kickass start, but it went great.

hello, world. hello, february. well, here's some piece of crap, if you douche bag really thinks that the world outside is uber cool or whatever. just for the record, little boys and girls, you're going to work like a dog and get shitty pay and at the end of the day, your boss will get the credit, and it will never be you. and on another hand, you can choose to not mug for exams and lepak till your bopleh gets swollen, and eventually, your parents are still going to fucking screw you, not because of how bad your friends are, but how cocky your education was. anyway, my point is, stop thinking that everything is cliche, and dont use cliche when you dont even know what it fucking means. i admit that i should be having a fucking awesome time, wasting it on friends literally not doing anything but hello? besides the number of our age, the amount that we need in our everyday lives multiply as well. ya'll pussies really need to think of what you're doing. come on, bitches? stop wasting time and start mugging for examinations. and i'm rushing to finish up my assignment. kbye.

don't leave me here to pass through time, without a map or road sign.

Circa Survive - Travel Hymn

2010-01-30T14:32:00.004+08:00

good afternoon, world. well, i skipped worked today, shouldnt have done that in the first place though. got my pay, and meeting nadiah and akmal later on to head to town. school's been a daily drama and no shit, it's drama. akmal's going to quit working at digiphoto and work at resorts world as a "taxi caller" idk ah. but kental? keh tak kental ah. but the pay boleh la tahan. cuma kerja dia no life? who the fuck works at 11pm-8am, 6 days a week, except for azam, you tell me? ha ha ha ha. azam, memang no life. -_-

there's not much of "yok, lepak? biasa ah 151" chit chats anymore. azam and khairi are busy men, one is too engrossed with work and also feeling all kinky while the other is just busy with school and sherra. hah. well, i'm not quite sure what's up with ridwan and nadiah but from what i know, nad's busy with school and work too. cheyh? chloe dok, siapa tak mau kerja tu tempat wai? sorry, for the bohsia talk. hah. wazini's 10 stop away from us, so that pretty explains why, i guess? suqiman and liyana are both busy with work too. while aku? biasa ah, sekolah abeh kerja. so kirakan macam sama ah. ada kene mengene dengan gitu gitu juga. but the only person who's a little bit unexpected to be busy is ais. he doesnt even work? all he do is skates and cycle with she-devil. she-devil's his bike's name. and sally is akmal's. heh. i know right? fucking girlish. hydhir's staying 461394325 stops away from us, so we dont pretty much expect him to meet us that often too.

why the fuck am i blabbering about 151 at this blog? fucking shit. imma go cook some good food then have an awesome shower and meet nadiah up. yessargh. and i miss orang. idk who but just orang. and i have a feeling that someone hates the fact that i am smoking some puff. D: but he doesnt like me what? then care for what, bodoh? right? right? if he like, tell me la bodoh! knnbccb. keh, shit world. kbye.

AKMAL HAKIM BIN ISMAIL, YOU'RE GETTING ON MY NERVES, BODOH. _|_

then when winter comes, all the memories at our favourite beach turns icy cold.

Kings Of Convenience - Mrs. Cold

2010-01-23T13:35:00.001+08:00

MEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHE!

I ARE HAPPY. CANNOT WAIT FOR 18 MARCH! KBYE.

Nidji - Ku Takkan Bisa

2010-01-20T02:58:00.008+08:00

let's see. they cancelled their performance last year at zouk, on thursday night. heh.
reason: it was ramadhan and yeah? it was pretty cocky ah to perform on a ramadhan.
idk when are they planning to make a quick come back but i have a feeling it's soon?
surprisingly, mama bought their Let's Play CD at batam and the album's in the car. -_-
then again, when is anthony green's coming to town? with circa survive at least? D:
ciaoing off now. school later at 330pm, i think? bleargh. goodnight, martians.

because love is just a game of deception that you have to play along.

Bright Eyes - Devil In The Details

2010-01-18T21:45:00.005+08:00

watch your mouth hold your toungue boy because you're running out of breath,
running out of time before every careless word that you utter renders you
utterly useless, now you're drowning in your own saliva trying to speak
yourself to the top of your empty world, well keep on talking just keep on
rambling you've got your mouth full

now listen here's the pleasant part, you and i we fell apart
now listen here's the pleasant part, you and i we fell apart
why don't you make up your mind? why can't you make up your mind?

shut your mouth burn your bridges, throw your words like an attack and stab me
in the wait a second, wait a second what's that i just heard? nevermind it's
obviously worthless. now you're standing on your soapbox yelling from the
rooftops, everything you say is a lie.. a lie.. a lie.. lie lie

now listen here's the clever one who speaks before his thoughts are done
now listen here's the clever one who speaks before his thoughts are done
why can't you make up your mind? why can't you make up your mind?

watch your mouth, hold your tongue some things are better left unsaid
now i hope you're pleased you let your pride stand tall it danced within your
words right before you fall... right before you...fall

why don't you.. say that to my face? i've had it ripped out, torn down, so
many fakes. everything you, every time you, every word you say
if i told you this was killing me would you, would you stop?