i'd be lying if i were to say that i am doing okay. who would, in this kind of situation? am i right? i am left speechless, only with aching hearts to handle. another round of seeing myself hitting rock bottom. thought you'd change my perception but you were no different. i dont blame you and i wont blame you. was pretty much blinded by my own death trap.

then there comes a point when you feel like everything looks better when you're feeling numb. you dont want to move on because you're coping all of this bullshit on your own. but you have to because you dont have any other choice but just do.. you dont want anyone to see you cry because you think you're showing your weakness. guess, i'm better off this way? who needs pretentious little fucks to know whether or not you're doing fine, right?

"I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world" - Adam Levine